So honestly, not much has delighted me this week! My artwork has been such a source of delight since I started two months ago but just this week alone I’ve created five canvases that I don’t particularly care for. One even ended up in the garbage. I’m actually not surprised ~ after completing “Sparkling Soul” (which I initially loved so much it made me teary) I knew it would be a hard act to follow. But I’m okay with it all. I know there are ebbs and flows to everything ~ and while the ebbs are still not my favorite, I can handle them with much more EASE. That’s saying a lot for me, who used to fight contrast so much it was my full-time job. Hence today’s daily quote (always featured on the Homepage): “After Enlightenment it is SO much EASIER to own ALL of me.” I AM the frustrated creator, I AM the elated creator, I AM all of it. Can’t be ALL of it, if there are still parts I’m denying or resisting!
I watched a video from a LOVELY artist who embodies this all so beautifully. It’s a longer video, which I don’t usually watch, but I watched all of hers. If you’re not interested in the subject matter, I’ll sum it up for you: She spent the first 15 minutes of her 18 minute video creating something that she ended up not liking and then painted over it in the last 3 minutes. I LOVED that! I’ve never seen any other artist do that ~ spend most of the time creating a “mistake” and then just moving on with grace and ease for all to see. I was inspired! Proving yet again, mistakes and flaws are what make us lovable and relatable to other humans. Thankfully (I guess?) after enlightenment there are still many flaws. The difference is I can see the beauty and purpose in them. And OWNING them is what makes me WHOLE.
Here are a couple of my disappointments. The gold/purplish one I just did last night after finally gathering all the “proper” materials. The proper materials left me quite underwhelmed. Sometimes winging it just is the best technique. I’ll wing some stuff today and see if I can spruce it up a bit.
Whatever I decide to do or not do with these canvases, I’ll hold onto them. Because they’ve served me in beautiful ways ~ reminding me to own ALL of it.
I’ll finish off today with a quote from the book I’m currently rereading: The Forty Rules of Love by Elif Shafak. “While pretty flowers are instantly plucked, few people pay attention to the plants with thorns and prickles. But the truth is, great medicines are often made from these. Isn’t it the same with the garden of love? How can love be worthy of its name if one selects solely the pretty things and leaves out the hardships? It is easy to enjoy the good and dislike the bad. Anybody can do that. The real challenge is to love the good and bad together, not because you need to take the rough with the smooth but because you need to go beyond such descriptions and accept love in its entirety.”
Today may we all revel and feel blessed in our delights AND our disappointments. I love you.